that little box

the last week has held so much. so much i never thought would actually happen. so much i'm happy for. so much more unknown future. so much more to look forward to. fear. what is fear? it can be an emotion which is aroused by pain, danger, or evil. it can be real or imagined.

this week started off like any other week. regular routine and such. little did i know how much fear had ahold of me. Christ tells us not to fear. much easier said than done. i'm often afraid of making mistakes or making the wrong decisions or having plans that turn into disasters. i'm finding out i'm especially afraid of the unknown. (notice my previous post, i'm kinda seeing a pattern here. lol) why live life in fear? what does it accomplish? i started asking myself these things. living in fear only creates a box in which you confine yourself in and never let yourself out. you find comfort in that little box. you make it your home. little do you realize, that little box eventually has you by a death grip. you try to get out of it, but it takes too much effort. too many negative thoughts run through your head while you try to escape the comfort zone of your box. whats wrong with staying comfy, right?

i believe God intended for us to step out of those little boxes. He challenges us to do so everyday. He asks things of us we think are crazy. God, you want me to do what? are you kidding me? and yes, sometimes, He asks us to stay inside that little box and grow closer to Him. it gives us time to grow and seek His face. yet, we can still grow and seek His face when He calls us outside that little box. i believe it makes things more challenging. after all, we have to still seek Him while exploring the things outside the box. this week, i believe He asked me to step outside my little box...the one i was so comfortable in. the one i vowed i wouldn't get out if til i moved to boise. haha, man, i'm sure He is laughing right now. i'm just so darn stubborn and yet, even He has ways of making me move. i find when i ask myself questions, thats when He speaks. He tends to get his words in as my answers to my questions. its a rather interesting process to be honest. anyway, now i'm just rambling in this post. bottom line. sometimes we have to take steps in fear to get out of that box thats holding us because of the fear we have. so in a sense, it takes fear to get out of fear in some cases. make sense?

life is an adventure. i dont want to look back one day and regret the fact that i stayed in my little box because i was afraid. i pray He gives me the guidance and strength to get through the next days, weeks and years. He will. He is faithful. all the time.

Fear is a little dark room, where negatives are developed.