lazy days

so this weekend has been a lazy one, i'll admit. i usually hate staying home all the time...i'm the girl always on the go....this weekend was much different. slowing life down for a bit gave me time to reflect...time to pray...time to wonder.

ya know the old saying, time changes everthing? well, thats the one thing we can always count on to change everything, i believe it. i've been looking back on the last year and how much my life has changed. its changed for the better in almost everyway. a year ago, i had a stressful job, a family i never talked to because of conflict, a brother that didn't want anything to do with me, an ended relationship with a jerk, etc........

so much has changed. i'm so very blessed. i'm blessed to be able to serve an HUGE God. I'm so very privileged to live in a country where i'm able to exercise that religious freedom. I have an amazing job with awesome boss'. My family has slowly been 'put back together' and our relationship is 100 times better now than it was a year ago or better than its ever been really. My little brother actually looks up to me again, i love that feeling. He enjoys spending time with me and that makes me happy. I'm extremely blessed to have an amazing boyfriend in my life right now that loves God with all his heart and is constantly trying to have God be the center of our relationship. (so much different than any other relationship i've experienced)

I'm happy, very happy. i think happiness is something you must sometimes pursue. You must look for those little things in life that make you happy. You can't buy happiness. I believe happiness is different from joy. Happiness is something some people never get the chance or rarely get the chance to experience. I have no idea why i started on the subject of happiness.....but i am happy. i'm content. i'm blessed. i'm looking forward to the coming days.

I believe someone once said, "People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be" Sometimes, its a choice. We must find the silver lining from those dark clouds......"Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times" i'm trying to be a more optimistic person (for those that know me, i'm far from optimistic when it come to my own life.) i try taking a few seconds each day to find something thats happy or makes me happy....it helps.