over a year already??

wow, the last time i logged on and blogged was nearly 13 months ago....time sure flys. it was kinda funny to go back and read my previous blogs....the blog before this one about time changing everything was especially interesting.....time does change everything.

i feel like God keeps putting me on this rollercoaster in which He calls life. or a merry-go- round perhaps? maybe the latter is more like it. tonight-i'm not really sure what i feel. probably numb could sum it all up. time, indeed change everything. i look back at the last 6 months and feel extremely blessed, yet at the same time...i feel like i'm right back where i was 2 years ago regarding some parts of my life. bleh.

so much is going on. we still have christmas to get through...listen to me, i sound like the grinch. i shouldn't have to say 'get through'. it should be a joyous time of year. every year i become more and more frustrated with how commercialized this holiday season has become. it takes some of the greatness out of it, ya know? anyway, i'm trying to focus on the real reason for the season...

aside from christmas is the move to Boise. geez, we still have alot to do. lots of packing especially. plus, i'm not looking forward to leaving my job. its going to kill me. i'll probably cry for weeks if i'm honest. i hate crying. for some reason i think the next 3 weeks will involve lots of crying. i have to leave one of my best friends (my sister in law)...i'm so not looking forward to that. i hate knowing a seven hour drive separates us....once again, i'll prolly cry lots. i'm not looking forward to leaving my in laws. or my apartment. or this city. i don't want to have to search for another job while our country is in this recession...its not gonna be fun.

all that said, i need to try to focus on the good of this move. i'll be starting classes again at a university..yay. yet i feel like i'm in 1st grade again...terrified at the thought of being part of a huge campus where i know no one. but hey...i'll learn fast, right?

we get a new apartment to decorate. i'm looking forward to putting up pictures. :)

plus, its a new adventure with my best friend. i pray god draws us closer to each other and Him.

i'll end this post now...as i'm just rambling. i pray i cherish the next 3 weeks. and cry if i need to. in fact, after writing this, i'd like to cry. lol